Awake, refresh, restart. Customize your stability and break away from convention. Find your focus and utilize your potential.
SEE YOURSELF AS THE PERSON YOU WANT TO BE, THAN ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE IT.
I have so many online aliases, but I have to say that Kade is by far my favorite. I -am- Kade. Kade is unique and quirky and odd, but loving and sick and sad all wrapped into a big bundle of complacency and borderline convention. Away from the lock down of a computer and laptop, when cyber space is out of reach, I become a foreign entity. I am no longer myself.
I'm just a damn fool.
My goal: Get down to 155 by Christmas. AND STAY THERE!
Whatever happens happens, but damnit! I am SO sick of talking. I'm sick of saying all the things I'm going to do, and then never doing them. I'm sick of not meeting the potential that is expected of me and that I demand on myself.
But more than anything, I'm sick of my inability to be perfect. Perfection is the goal, and nothing less will make me happy. Nothing else will bring the contentment and desire I so desperately want: perfect body, perfect grades, perfect job, perfect friends, perfect significant other. Good won't work. Great doesn't matter. I need to be superior. I need to be the best.
I need some fucking perfection!
